Prior to attending college at IWU, I worked in retail: Hobby Lobby and Bass (shoe & clothing store). When I worked in that type of environment, I had to have a tough skin: I couldn't let anyone or anything get to me personally.
Looking back, I felt like a robot: I couldn't feel anything. Or I wasn't allowed to feel anything. I had to "blow everything off." I recognize now that wasn't healthy: to block everyone and everything out.
As a creature of God, I am not created or wired to be a robot, the inability to feel anything. I want to feel something, even if it's pain. Because honestly, that's all I feel.
A deep soul wrenching pain that I know only God can heal. So I let him in.
I say to Him, "Father, heal me from this pain that is so crippling to me."
I know He hears me as I cry out to Him.
I'm not created to be a robot.
None of us are.
I encourage you to embrace whatever you're feeling, whether it's positive or negative emotions. God is glorified in us when we are real and when we come before him vulnerable.
For HIS renown,
~Susie
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