Broken

I am broken.

I feel angry, ashamed, frustrated, used, guilty and a million others that I can't even express in words.

I sought out a cheap thrill. That is all it was. I didn't want a relationship.

Honest.

Now I'm paying for it.

Right now life seems hopeless. I feel like I'm drowning and there is no one to come and rescue me from all the pain I feel.

I sought instant gratification as a way to deal with pain that I experienced at my home church in high school. All I saw was judgment. That is why I don't let people in. If I keep them far, then they can't hurt me and I can't hurt them.

One thing I know perfectly: I'm in a really bad place and only God can bring me out of it.

All for HIS glory + always <3