Unfounded Fear

I had one day of spiritual refreshment. Now I feel I have ran back to the way I was before. I'm very practical and don't see the productive value in doing my devotions "hardcore."

I love that word, "hardcore," It is an adjective I want to use to describe the relationship I have with God.

But it's not.

I have fear but it's not founded or based on anything except lies.

Unfounded fear.

That will get me nowhere. I want God to break me, but I must have willingness for Him to work. I thought about what would happen if He broke me: I would be humbled, I would face growth, and there would be a level of depth in my relationship.

Anyway, back to the concept of unfounded fear. I don't like that description to define the relationship I have with God.

I need to lose control, that is why I need God to break me, from everything I try to hide behind.

Dear God,

I realize I have unfounded fear that is based on absolutely nothing. I can't make something out of nothing. So here I am. Take all of me. Create in me a willing heart. A heart that longs to be broken for You, for everything You have for me.

Amen