In the Valley

As I reflect on my experience at Indiana Wesleyan University, I recognize I have lived on the mountain top.

Continually I had spirtual moments that have come in the form of class lectures, Summit, chapel, conversations with friends, etc.

I greatly appreciate those experiences because they challenged me to be strong in my faith. And during that time, I wasn't struggling with anything.

I want that back: where I'm rock solid in my faith, a place where I can't be moved from where God has placed me right in the moment. But I know I can't live on the mountain top. I went most of my college career where everything was amazing in my walk with God. I was always growing and living close to His heart.

Now I'm in the valley. I'm tired of pretending I'm still on the mountain where I'm strong in my faith. I'm not.

The mask is off. I can't lie to myself.

I need to just stop and let God rebuild my life. I desperately need Him and His spirit to heal and restore me.

Each day is a step in the direction of healing.

For HIS renown,
~Susie

Perception

I'm on spring break this week. Yay! Honestly, I needed to get away from my school and everything that is going on.

I'm on probation because of my actions. And I feel my RD can't relate to me on any level. And that sucks.

She wants to try to "fix" me as if I'm broken.

It might be my perception: how I see the circumstances.

I don't know. All I know is I'm happy that I'm home for the week (until Sunday March 11th). Then I go back. I'm not looking forward to it.

:-(

My perception of IWU has changed because I'm not an awesome spiritual leader like I used to be my first two years. I feel people look down on me because of the choice I made.

I would rather live in the real world than the IWU "bubble."

All for HIS glory + Always <3

From the Grave to Grace

The moment I came into the world, I began to die.

Before I depress you, let me explain.

I was dying not in a physcial sense, rather a spiritual death. I was outside of grace, subject to death, apart from Him who could bring into His abundant life.

Everyone was (and is) meant to live in His life. I recognize there are many cultures and many different religions. I seek to understand those religions that are different from mine.

This breaks my heart that atheism and other religions exist in the world. But they do. What can I do?

I simply live life in the light of God.I don't want to single out any religion because I don't want anyone to single me out because I am a Christian.

I have a testimony to share; nothing and no one can take that away.

People in the world have the freedom to believe in whatever they want.

Love is what motivated Jesus to die in humanity's place. It wasn't religion. The love of God can't be denied. The simple fact is everyone desires to be loved. And because of His great love for me, I went from the grave to life inside His grace.

All for His glory + Always <3